Sunday, 27 December 2009
Tuesday, 27 October 2009
my weeks been good, me jess & joel have sorted everything out. although the whole things still kinda knocked me.
so im quite happy today, i've lounged about watching various repeats of 'miami ink' and its always good to get a bit of 'fashion tv' or 'world fashion' in before lunch ;D
im quite glad that none of my friends read this blog, as i kinda sent some pictures away to 'Select Model Managment' to see about what it would take to be a model. personally, i don't think im tall enough, male models need to be like...5ft 11+ think, and im only 5ft 10
but i might aswell see what they think. im betting their gonna say i need my moles removed, which is alright because i want them gone anyway. i've been thinking about sending my pics away for a while now...but i was kinda waiting until i got my moles removed as i think it would let me give a better impression...or something.
im not sure.
well anyway, best wait and see what they say, and i've been wondering how to find out if anyones following me? xD
well...im off, i taped that 'race and intelligence' program which was on last night
its basically about genetic intelligence and seeing if by using the averages between different races can prove this. alot of shite tbh, intelligence isnt inbuilt, its not a bladder!
Thursday, 15 October 2009
but my hair's sitting nicley, so thats cheered up my day.
and i have it wrote down how to do it because i usually forget (im such a geek)
so thats slightly took away from the seering pain i feel when i try to stand.
i love scrubs.
Thursday, 8 October 2009
so i got to the shop, waited outside as usual, met Rachel and we walked up which was very calming.
so then i got to registration, i was standing outside it and Jess walks up and goes 'the reason I've been acting strange around you is because you've changed, and even Joel's noticed it'
so i was like
'what...hold up What?!'
and she went 'its been ever since you went to una rodden.' & then she just walked off into registration.
i LOVE Jessica and all, but seriously? what the actual fuck?
so i talked to Claire at the end of the day, ( right, i told her she had wonky eyebrows (as a joke thing) and she said she didn't really like it so i said i wouldn't say anything like that again)
so me and Claire are fine, but Jessica and Joel must be annoyed at me, Rachel said she'd heard Jess and Joel talking about me and she just didn't pay any attention. Claire said I'd been a bit more 'cocky' but if that's what the problem is then I'm not really going to change.
everyone except me started falling out with Joel because he was being too 'cocky'. and everyone was falling out with him, but i said to him 'yes you have changed, but people naturally change, you can't expect people to be the same forever'
so this whole thing has annoyed me. if they think I'm being cocky I'm glad I'm cocky because finally after 5 years of working towards it i have a bit of self-fucking-confidence without dickheads constantly on my back!
i absolutely love Jessica and Joel and Claire and all my friends, if i didn't i wouldn't be hanging around with them. but ever since Una rodden i have felt more confident about myself than anything. and if since then I've been able to think about my appearance or my hair or not give a shit what people say about me in the corridor, then i am not going to change how i feel.
i put up with shit from fucking everyone in this dickhead school and i don't need another fucking whitney moment!
i have other shit in my life to deal with then people telling me i have to be constantly on guard and stay the exact same throughout my whole life.
i want to fucking screamm!
this has fucking upset me. it's not like theres not stuff going on in my life outside school i have to deal with? i just don't go and tell everyone my business. if i wanted people to know whats going on in my life i would but i don't, because it's my business, and if do you not think people should consider that there is other stuff then fucking school and how i act in it and how my fucking life is outside it! ive got fucking problems up to the fucking neck and this whole 'youve changed' thing has put a fucking downer on my day and probably my month.
i love my friends, but why in the fuck would they say that? i am constantly asking jessica if shes ok, because shes told me her problems, and because i want to know how she feels, i try to ask joel but nowadays every time i try to talk to him he leaves to go somewhere else.
this has been one big fucking ugly rant but i needed to rant because people need to stop caring about how i act around them and HOW IM DOING IN MY FUCKING LIFE!!?!?!?
asking me if im okay.
or asking me whats going on, what ive been doing, how s my week going, whats up with my family.
AND IM FUCKING READY TO BURST.
this has knocked my self confidenece down sooo much i cannot describe.
but i am going to feel good about myself. because i havent in a fucking long time!
Wednesday, 7 October 2009
Monday, 21 September 2009
im absolutley knackerd, but it had its good parts.
i got too see davy at lunch, were dining alfresco tomorrow aswell.
then i got to see jessica at 3 o'clock. which was brill, cause i got too shop.
so i went in to work experience, sat down, twas a slow day, she didn't really have anything to do, but she complimented my style and asked me if i'd ever done modeling. i was all happy.
then when i did some sketches she thought they were brilliant and asked if i had attended classes on how to do drawing classes for fashion drawings. i felt really embarrassed but really good at the same time.
so at una rodden (the fashion designers i went to work experience at) they sold 3 dresses, all costing over £700, and a broach which cost £155. i was amazed there wer people in belfast that coult aford that type of stuff.
Una Rodden seemed really shocked at my knowlege of all different designers and their collections, she seemed particullarly suprised that i knew about Moncler's new collection. she said i was very well informed about the fashion world.
so tomorrow im taking in my half finished tartan blazer and trying to get some of it done. they said they'll help me get it really skinny and fitted.
Jess dyed her hair today, its like dark dark blue. but its really nice. and she got a really nice dress and shoes. i think if i get the time ill try make her a dress, jasmine and rachel and becca are more into jeans and stuff like that, but i like girls in dresses.
So right now im watching some show about how tudor period barbers actually did surgerys resulting in many millions of people dying. loveley.
im propery knackerd. and i really don't know how im going to get up in the morning. i hope im able to produce a blazer i can wear by the end of the week.
so today was a good day.
Sunday, 20 September 2009
went to town with jasmine, jordan, rachel, rebecca jamel, paddy, colm, joel and colms friend keelan.
to be very honest i didn't really like keelan, he kinda thought he was the shit. but he did blow a condom up over his head. which mildly amused me and jasmine.
Rachel and Becca left early, im not quite sure why, i think becca was sick and rachel had somewhere else to be. but the day was good, we saw sorority row, which scared the shit outta me!
then we walked around town for a bit, i showed jasmine were Una Rodden was( i really cannot wait for work experience, it's going to be great!...i might get a bit lost going there though.) and then we walked to 'emo corner' (city hall)
i swear to god, i was basically like 'ive got more metal in my face then you'
there was a girl in purple fishnets and i had o be held back from screaming at her for crimes against fashion!
and we saw a guy who looked like Van Hellsing.
so overall it was a good day, i promised to give colm my skateboard thingy with about...12 wheels. so he'll like that.
but yesterday was good.
so i've spent all of today walking about my house trying to break in my Doc Martens, they're not hurting so much as i expected, but there a bit uncomfortable.
i love them soooo much.
jasmine said i looked like a male model yesterday, so thats made my week.
Friday, 18 September 2009
So when i got home, we orderd chinese, which was actually the tastiest thing i'd eaten all week, it was really filling and just made my day.
its been one of those happy happy days. no depressing little comments, just a brilliant day.
so now im watching 'the psycic' and shes telling this woman there's a 'dark entity' around her that touches her sexually.
it's pretty good and offers amusement.
good good day.
Thursday, 17 September 2009
which is VERY good.
but to be honest, i need jessica to go into town with me to get the stuff...because well..although she dosen't seem like it or act like it, shes a really smart shopped, and she gets in and out of shops quick, i'd like to be able to look around a bit more when im with her, but still, she's good at what she does :D
the only other person i think would go to the shops with me is davy and im not even sure if hes going cause hes already seen sorority row. :(
im suppoesd to be getting Doc Martens and to be quite honest i can't see jasmine and rachel taking much time to go around shops with me.
i think rachel's been acting a bit strange around me latley... idk, its probably just me being paranoid. but like, everytime homosexuality or something like that is mentioned in our little group, she comes off with stuff like 'its disgusting' and 'i hate it when gay people hold hands, it makes me sick'
and it makes me wonder...what does she really think of me?
cuz like...i LOVE rachel, shes one of my best best friends...but...ugh idk... :(
and jasmine and rachel are always like 'i hate doc martens there disgusting, i hate urban outfitters, i hate , i hate i hate'
:( sometimes i wish they would just not hate stuff, i dont like negativity, in any form, (cept about skit-knee)
well, i guess it just gets to me,
i just worry.
Wednesday, 16 September 2009
it was a strange thing that happened today. I've got science coursework to do and Math homework to finish...which shouldn't be too hard...try to stay positive.
Tuesday, 15 September 2009
My names Aaron, and i've been using tumblr mostly
but i've heard this is good so ill give this a try.
well...whats been going on in my life? I've recently became infatuated with http://www.lookbook.nu/
which is an absolutley amazing website, my top number of 'hypes' is 14. which im pretty happy with...it means im getting a teeny tiny bit of attention, and thats good!
my favourite look at the moment is http://lookbook.nu/look/241765-Chiquitito-you-and-I-know it's by http://mrjuancocco.blogspot.com/
well, my highest rated look was this, so if you like it you can go on my lookbook and hype it :)
and here's the link. http://lookbook.nu/look/240601-LOOK-The-Little-Fucker-s-wearin-denim-today
well, i hope i'll do more blogs in the future. :)